What is this newsletter about?

For the last few months, I have been trying to cope with the loss of my dear mother. In books, movies and songs, I looked for different definitions of grief, hoping to find one or two that would help me understand how I was feeling. All I knew I felt was helplessness and searing rage. With our connection now untethered, I was left in the ruins of the possibilities that we could have been, a future together that was now revoked.

Days dissolved into nights, dawn broke the nights, but I couldn't go on. I abandoned all the worries of the world to mourn my mother's loss. I found myself pining to return to my past, to shed my present and nestle in the warmth of my mother's presence. But Death is just so fucked up, isn't it? So cold and vicious in its ways, not pitying the living. Absolute. It leaves behind grief to haunt your heart and mind, only ever tightening its grip on you.

'Grievances from the Grieving' is a newsletter that documents the aftermath of losing a dear one in hopes of understanding grief through deep dives into the past, one story at a time.

Right there, in the debris of my memories is a place I long to be. Acceptance of loss is inevitable sooner or later, but today I want to lounge in what I have lost. With 'Grievances from the Grieving' I hope I can give you the words for grief and anger that I couldn't find.